.. I was about to send to a friend. Then I thought.. why bother him? He might have more things going on in his head. So I decided to put it here instead.

Mike,

I hope you are not starting to wonder if I'm only going to email you when I need your ears.

Today, I feel lost. I started to question a lot of things I do, things I say, my priorities and what opinions some people might have about me. I think it's the hormones doing the thinking, something I quite dislike about being a woman, half of the time, you are so emotional you can't think straight.

I went for a walk and took the longer route to the playground. I thought I could stay there for a while but the while was shorter than I thought I would stay there cause I suddenly got very scared, like something spiritual would disturb me if I stay there any longer, as if I've done something I shouldn't.
When I headed out, I thought the walk would allow me to get my head right and I brought my Ipod along. On the way there, I increased the volume to drown out the noise of the vehicles on the highway right in front of my area. I was on the swing for a while before fear started creeping into my senses. My guts telling me that I should leave. I started reciting some verses my mother taught meant to calm the mind and spirit but fear didn't go away until I was home for a good 5 minutes and I didn't get any thinking done. I guess meditation isn't really good for me since I can't really stop thinking.

I should try to get some sleep before I turn into a zombie at work tomorrow. I hope things are going well for you over there.

Take care,
Hazell

You're like me. You feel bad for bothering your friend with your problems, but you know that they wouldn't mind.

I always take a moment to consider when I want to bother Alex with my stuff. But he always listens no matter what, even if he's the one who needs the therapy more than I do, lol.

That's the beautiful thing about friendship.

You shouldn't be afraid to impose, because chances are that it really isn't an imposition. :)
» ranor on 2010-01-21 11:39:42

you don't know what movie Muffy took that quote in his blog from?
» LostSoul13 on 2010-01-23 04:10:55

its from the movie Fight Club. great movie. even better book.
» LostSoul13 on 2010-01-24 05:37:22

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